A broken heart is the worse feeling in the world. It can be more painful than even the worst physical pains in this world, it can tear someone apart. It can change a persons mind and they cud do anything and not understand y, that their sense of morality or their sense of logic jus disappears, that they can act rash or stupid and not realize it. A broken heart can turn and twist a person in half, it can take over their mind it can destroy a persons life. There isnt a cure, only ways to help mend it. Scars will never leave, but we jus try to forget them.....but they can open up again when the same pain, or something so similar happens again and the pain is jus worse than it cud've been......that when things happen over and over again, the same situation the same outcome, the heart will jus feel even worse, when it should be stronger.....it IS stronger but that doesnt mean it wont hurt more.....Its still painful, still hurts......That one's strength can jus be taken away so easily by the most sensitive part of any person....the heart. A broken heart brings pain, and pain brings tears, and tears jus bring sorrow.....

Why do i cry? because the pain hasnt gone away, that past fears have come back to haunt me, that past pains are happeneing again, not in the same place but in the same way.......It hurts so much that i've never ben in so much tears in my life.....that its never hurt so much b4, that i've never had to feel so much pain and suffering......that love taken away from me destroys me inside, it tears at me, pulls me apart, and my heart is jus ripped into pieces once again, i feel lost and afraid, that i wud cling to any bit of wat i have left in order to jus be loved once again, that i wud try anythign  i can to make it feel better, even tho i kno it might make thigns worse.....and thats the mistake i feared, that i feared i wud do the same mistake a 3rd time......its not jus so simple, theres no easy way, and it jus gets harder each day, and i jus cant do this alone.......i dont want to be alone, i dont want to be afraid by myself, i dont want to feel so hurt anymore....no more tears, no more pain....

I cant ask for a perfect world, because my world left me, because my heart was taken and broken. I can only ask to have a chance, a chance to continue, and chance to feel better, i wish for something i cnat have, i wish that she'd come back to me, but if i can jus have anything, any way to mend my broken heart, i'd take it.....but i cant do it alone.....help me mend my broken heart, help make it better..........i'm lost, i'm scared, i'm broken....i need kindness and care, i need to see the sunhine and the stars, i need anything to help me heal.....to help my heart mends its wounds, to help it be strong.....i dont want to be in pain, i dont want to shed tears anymore.....

i wanted to wait for u, i wanted to have the chance once again, i wanted to at least be ther efor u when times got rough, that nothing wud make me stray away, i wanted to be the one who u cud turn to when u cried, when u needed someone to hold u, to carry u when u cudnt walk, to help u find the way in the dark, to be able to be there in the end who will be patiently waiting, patiently waiting until u were rdy to come back into my heart, i hoped we cud still be close and we wudnt drift away....................................i jus wished things didnt have to be this way.....

With all the stuff u've had to go thro all this time, was it worth having to do that alone? I wud've always been there for u, always been the one to be ur refuge, to be ur shelter, to jus hold u in my arms and say "its ok", that i wud be there for u no matter wat....... i'm not like the others who wud jus throw away ur love after.......u still mean so much to me thats its almost impossible to really feel this way, to feel belonging to someone, to feel as if it was right.....u dont even kno how i much i feel about this, about u....that i wud jus be jus "another one", another man in ur life who found a place there, in ur heart......no....i found a home. Was i deserving of ur heart? Because i'm sure as i live that u had my heart, and still do....even thro all these times....

I try, even now still my best to be able to have u back into my life even tho i kno it wont be certain....ppl tell me to move on, but i stay strong i stay tru to u, i wait for u, when ur rdy to accept me back into ur life...sounds naive but i wont give up...for u i wud give anything, anything to be with u again....ur love is so important to me it hurts even more each day that u drift by me, drift away from me.....i still cant believe i wasnt worth it......that u wudnt try to get it to work.....that u jus gave up.....that my love didnt mean enuf for u to be with me.....i cry rivers of tears missing u, needing u, once more to jus hold u in my arms again, to be there for me like u used to be....the times we were happy were the best of my life, and it will never be the same again without u......